after so many posts in my "open" blog... decided to do a personal one... solely for razzy...
I'm crazy, i'm mad, i'm not unique, i'm naive, i'm stupid, i'm stubborn.... I'm myself... Tats me....
so sad... after so many dingdongs... i'm tired... i know she didnt say... but i know she's not happy... like wat my insurance agent just faced one of her worse nightmare... her closest friend BROKE OFF with her cos they know each other too well... cant be mutual friends anymore... can only be strangers... she's devastated... i've been through this heart pain... although tat so called friend is not my best... but somehow... a broken friendship saddens me... told myself not to think of it... trying so hard to get past all these... but still the impact is still there.... i've lost my trust in friends... like wat my brother said... making friends is like a gamble... u get a friend who clicks well with u.. u win if not u lose...
i dun even feel like having friends now... its not fair to them i knw... but i dun wish to go through another heartpain... it really hurts.. 2 mths already... i told myself i dun care.. its histroy.. but my heart is still bleeding.... so now on... will try to keep a distance from them including the ones i loved most... after my birthday... my first n last gathering...do not wish to hurt them anymore if loving them too much is hurting them...
"dun trust others too much... believe 30% will do... dun commit too much... love yrself more... tats the only way to protect yrself"... my friend said tat...
Yes, i must learn to be selfish... love myself more.... I will... i will try to...
\\\\LOVE MYSELF MORE/////
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